Abah...

assalamualaikum...

today, i feel that i want to write about my lovely abah... lately, i don't know why i feel so touched whenever i look at abah.. his face expression shown something worries him.. he does not what to share what is in his mind.. sometimes i did ask myself why i have this such feeling... but till now i could not get the answer... nape yek?? 

what i can see about abah, alhamdulillah he has a "strong" heart.. since last 3 years, after mak passed away on 11 Oct 2006 (18 Ramadan 1427H), abah has become a tough and brave man ... even now, he can really control him emotion... to him, any difficulties and misunderstanding occur, he will go through it and ensure the matter solve wisely... only that he need me n zam support on whatever he did... don't worry abah, we will always be beside u... sayang abah!

pity to abah as he fell down last thursday evening.. what i remember that evening was, abah just back from jogging.. as usual, he will do gardening after that... suddenly, that evening, he rushed in the house... he's mouths and lips is full of blood... some cut on his nose, cheek and hand.. his shirt is dirty with sand and blood... ya allah!! nape ngan abah nie.. i know he is in pain but he does not want to show cause he don't want me and servant worried... we helped him to clean the wound... pity abah...

then, on last sun, abah got a fever.. zam took him to the clinic in the morning... however, in the afternoon, he feel tired.. pity abah again... ya allah! sembuhkanlah abah dari penyakitnya... kasihanilah dia ya allah... aminnn... today is the 2nd day and he is still feeling tired... if tomorrow the situation still the same, me and zam going to bring him to clinic again... alahaii, risaunyaaaa... 

to me now is what i can do as a daughter is to give him support at all time..

abah, don't worry ya... me and zam always love you forever... we will always be your right and left hand.. we want you to be happy and enjoy your precious life...

baby sayang abah tau!!

IUI procedure - 4 Dec 09

assalamualaikum...

since last friday lepas buat iui, memang dah plan nak tulis sikit about the process. but last few days memang bz... hari jumaat memang satu hari dok baring cause perut sakit sangat.. hari sabtu gi jb and balik ari ahad malam... then, hari senin and selasa, abah strongly advised me to lying and have a good rest.. no playing with computer.. abah nampak aje, terus dia perli.. "ala, macam zam kata kalu bercucuk tanam tapi tak dpt hasil dia buat ape"... eeeeee... terus tido macam baby.... :)

about my iui nie, memang la kali nie kena i make sure myself fully rest.. this time the "egg" in the ovari , alhamdulillah besar seperti yg doc nak.. kena cucuk puregron pun 8 hari aje... abis perut biru2 cucuk sendiri... then on the actual day, buat iui kul 9.30am... fush masa tu perut rasasenak n sakit sangat.. tak tahu macam mana nak cerita.. nak jalan, duduk and baring pun tak selesa... dah jadi macam nenek kebayan pulak... sakitttttnyaaaaaaaa... tapi sabo aje la... it all because nak anak.. ape pun tawakal dan berdoa banyak...

hoping for the good news on the 31 dec 09 bila jumpa doc.. insyallah dengan izan allah swt.

aminnnn

Atok...

assalamulaikum...

when i'm writing this, atok has just discharged from Johor Specialist. syukur alhamdulillah he is allow to rest at home.. kesian gak tengok dia duduk kat dalam bilik yg tak ade tingkap... he must be confuse it is a day time or a night time... if i were him, i will be bored to be in that room too.. dah la malap... lampuflorescen t 2 aje... it's all because the hospital is going for renovation on all the single and vip rooms... alahaiii...

nape tah tiba2 since friday, lepas my iui treatment, i feel an easy and keep thinking about atok... alhamdulillah on saturday morning, abah and zam agreed to go back to jb. we rushed packing and managed to depart around 12 noon... at 4.30pm, we arrived jb and straight to the hospital... bila masuk aje, nampak atuk tengah baring.. nampak macam letih aje.. cian atukk.. what i can do now is to doa and pray for his good health... as one of my cousin told me, we need to give atok moral support, love and caring..

although i'm not too close my atok since small, i know he loved all his grandchildren... atok suka cite zaman jepun and zaman muda2 dia.. one thing is funny about atok is he love to fart... :)... kalu kentut, wowowo kuattttttttt... prottttttt... he he he... lepas kentut, mesti dia senyum.. that's why bila kecik2 dulu, atok kentut aje, cucu2 dia sure tutup idung.. he he he... he is a good and caring grandpa... i can still remember.. when i was small, if i'm in jb and once he is back from the market, he will call me and bring me around with his dark blue vespa around the housing area.. i will be standing in front so that i can play the horn.. he he he he.. tapi bila dia marah, jgn main2.. 

but yesterday, i feel soo different when i see him.. lying weak on the bed masa buat dialisis.. bila usap kepala dia, dia bole tido nyenyak.. bila kite baca ayat al quran, mulut dia terkumat kamit ikut ape yang kite baca... kadang2 tu, dia angkat tangan macam berdoa... i really cannot control my emotional... ya allah, sembuhkan lah atok ku.. sehatkanlah tubuh badannya.. kasihanilah dia ya allah... aminnn...

in coming jan, atok will be 90 year old... hope we could celebrate his birthday again... insyallah...

Family Gathering - BBQ 28 Nov 09

assalamualaikum...

at last, i managed to squeeze 10 minutes of my "precious" time today, just to note something in my blog... this is all because of the "lazy" fever... ha ha ha...

about the family gathering last saturday night, syukur alhamdulillah everyone enjoyed on bbq feast.. around 37 people including uncles, aunties, cousins and nieces all gathering at atuk's home... everyone so "sporting" and funny.. we laughed, we jokes and even we share all the joyful moment together.. it's every hard to gather everyone like this as aunties and uncles stayed in seremban and kl... tq aunty and uncle for organizing it.. :).. our main menu on that day is kambing golek... we also have prawns, calamari, chicken wings, sausages, corns, coselaw, fried noodle and fried rice served....  then, dessert is fruit pudding... our homemade menue are bubur caca and dadih ( 3 flavor: mango, cappuccino and chocolate).. after eating event, we had a family photo session... hubby is the main camera man and i'm the camera assistance.. atuk is like a super star that night.. he he he.. everyone wanted to have a special photo shot with atuk...  even his great grand children happy to take a picture with him.. so cute and TOUCHING... everyone is so happy to see atuk gives his best smiles to us on that night...

insyallah, we plan to have the same event on atuk coming besday in Jan 2010.. kite doa sama2 kay... :)..

again tq to my lovely aunty and uncle for organizing such a great event that night... it is one of the sweet memories  in my life...

I cann't wait....

assalamualaikum...

hari nie tul2 tensen ngan lap top.. actually, sejak 3 4 hari nie, lap top nie slow sesangat... ade tu nak download satu page aroound 15 minit.. nak godeh2 takut rosak pulak laptop hubby.. then, nak mintah dia repair n tengok2 kan cian pulak dia dah la penat balik keje lewat.. alahaii... sabo aje la... kalulah laptop nie biskut, dah abis aku gigit2 dia.. at least ade something to munch.. :)...

cite pasal this week, semalam duduk umah n mengadap lap top dr pagi sampai malam... sambil2 tu tolon drive abah pi kedai, ziarah kubur mak dan masak ikan kembung masak kicap... then, today sama routine cuma hari nie masak lauk lain  - ikan merah masak asam pedas and  labu masak lemak... sambil2 tu start pack baju hubby and me cause esok nak balik jb umah atuk...  tahun nie raye haji celebrate kat jb... for the 1st time after 3 years... selalunye balik one week after... ape pun, cann't really wait to balik jb esok... selain leh tengok atuk and bawak atuk jalan2 minum teh tarik, nak celebrate bbq on this coming sat kat umah atuk... sure best cause all my beloved aunties, uncles and cousins nak gather ramai... abis riuh la umah atuk... hubby macam biasa la.. he will be the main photographer and i will be the assistant (lantik diri sendiri tu... he he he).. so hari nie, kena siap camera, video and "tri-pod" tuk bawak esok...

i cann't wait for this sat.. nak makan banyak2 sebelum kena "posa" lama.. posa?? ikutlah kisah seterusnya... macam cite dalm tv pulak... he he he...

adios... muahhsss n take care 

Farm Ville vs Fish Ville

assalamualaikum...

memang ber"hantu" main dua2 game nie. mana taknya, bangun aje ngadap computer. lepas breakfast ngadap computer.  lepas lunch, ngadap lagi. dinner ngadap lagi. lepas tu sebelum nak tido pun mesti ngadap. rasanya, masa zaman student pun tak macam tu. he he he.... sabo aje la... 

for me, both games nie memang best. yang game farm tu bole la kite berangan kejap . konon2 kite ade farm sendiri tapi duit sikit. so, what can we do to earn more money to expand the farm?? we grow plant and then sell once it's harvest. siap bole bela binatang lagi. i love to see my friends farm. very creative. canggih!!  siap ade kandang gajah lagi... ade tu ade pokok pisang lagi.. wow! cayalah... nak cuba cari kalau-kalau ade pokok durian ke, pokok manggis ke. baru lah bestttt..

about the fish game pulak, dia pun best. dia macam bagi kite feel ade aquarium. so bubuh la ape ikan yang kite mampu beli. once, dah achieve adult level kite jual ikan tu. cuma stressnya, nak tunggu ikan tu besar, lamanyeeee.. sabo aje la.. same with farm ville, we can decorate the aquarium. 

selagi tak burin, i will keep playing this games. however, nanti nak try game cafe world and barn buddy. nak tengok effect "hantu" dia power gak ke? tungguuuuuuu...

adios and take care.

Penangan Facebook

assalamualaikum....

minggu lepas sangat la sibuk. bukan sibuk ngan keje umah tapi busy ngan keje dalam facebook. for the very first time i tried to explore farm ville. most of my friends commented this game is interesting and enjoyable. YES, I agreed!! Interesting tapi pening gak kepala memula tu. Nasib baik, my sifus all around (i.e. suzie, arin, efa, along, gaik hiang, choy foong and others). TQ BABEH!! At least now slow2, , my level makin naik. Yahooooo... tak la malu sangat ngan kengkawan.

While waiting for the plants to harvest, I tried to explore Fish Ville. Lagi interesting. Dah dah graphic layout dia best rasa betul-betul macam ade fish tank sendiri. That's why I told my hubby " Now, everyday I need to visit my farm and baby fish". :). Sabo aje la... Ape pun, alhamdulillah and syukur that I have a hubby, Zamzuri Bin Othman that is very encouraging, funny and caring person. TQ My Love!! 

May be lepas nie, nak try pulak Barn Buddy and Cafe World.

Think that's all for now. Coming nak tulis pasal Family Tree yang ade dalam Facebook. At this moment, I'm still exploring it. So tak bole nak cite panjang.

Adios. Take Care.

Zuriat

assalamualaikum...

almost one week no update from me on this blog. tetiba lak rasa malas nak log in this week. may be because too much ikut drama bersiri kot, tu yg tersadai depan tv. dah jadi macam polar bear kekenyangan dah.. he he he... :)..

anyway, nearly 2 weeks jadi temporary full housewife. emm... lot of things that i have learned especially in taking care dad, care  and love hubby more each day, handling servant typical character, better cooking and create more new recipes. penat tu jgn la cakap but yg penting i enjoyedddddd.... hubby pun dah rajin makan kat umah. aminnnn... :) ape pun syukur lah semuanya berjalan lancar. 

emmm semalam ade tengok cite drama bersiri nenek kebayan kat tv3 and tv9 (repeat).. tetiba rasa takut bila part memula mengandung lepas tu tetiba gugur. semua kerna ilmu sihir antara penyebabnya. betul kot orang kata, sometime dalam scene drama, ade relatenya dengan our actual life. cuma character and jalan cerita dalam tu mungkin ade sedikit berbeza. TAPI yang paling  penting the moral of the story yang bole buat kite sedar.

as for me, i have 3 times miscarriage.. i received a lot of comment and opinion in modern n traditional way. ape pun, i believe ini semua kuasa allah s.w.t. allah maha pengasih and maha mendengar. sebagai umatnya, i will always doa and doa and doa. insyallah, dengan izinya, satu hari nanti allah s.w.t akan kabulkan doa kite. ya allah, kurniakanlah aku zuriat yang baik, soleh, sehat and comel.  

To my dearly close mate, Along, thank you  for the good advise.  Sayu bila along kata "Anak-anak kita masih kat syurga lagi nie.. :). "  Thank you sis.. 

Have a great day... Adios

Wassalam 

Pening laa...

assalamualaikum.... today is my 2nd day to update my blog. feeling a bit headache n grumpy. since yesterday evening till now, still not sure which template to choose, what color use and how to prepare the layout. arghhhh.... susahnyaaa.... wish to have a "sifu" now... always say to myself "It's ok. Learn slowly and soon you can know all in your fingertips". insyalllah... ape lagi nak tulis ya?? he he he suddenly feeling blank... may be too much thinking about the layout sampai lupa semua!! :) anyway, it's friday today... plan to buy burger daging special for myself and nasi lemak bos for dad n hubby.. lepas tu layan NURKASIH drama at tv3.. lepas tu.. 3 4 5 6... he he... adios... wasalam

my 1st day

assalamualaikum.... today is my very 1st day to have my own blog. as first timer, the feeling is happy, although the sound of worry is there. think postive and i can DO IT! lots and lots of things to share. coming soon yeah!!! :)