Hari lahir ku - 22 Disember....

Assalamualaikum...... Alhamdulillah... Genap 35 than hari... Alamak, terasa semakin tua diri nie... Tak pe la org kata biar umur je tua tapi hari masih muda... At least, Taklah rasa terlalu  tue kan?? (Saja buat statement tu cause tak mo rasa bersalah... He he he)... Anyway, syukur ngan ape yg Allah beri... Semoga pjg umur ku dan murahkanlah rezeki ku... Aminnnnnnnnnnn Tak tahu la nape tetiba rasa emotional... Then, teringat and rindu sesangat kat arwah Mak... May be kalu dia ade nie, doakan org paling bz nak celebrate my besday... Without miss, dia akan beli kek n buat reservation for dinner... Tapi la nie, semua tinggal kenangan... It's different when with Abah n Zam.... To them, besday is a besday... Nothing much n nothing important... But when their happy day, i am the one who is eager to make the day happy (mcm arwah mak.... Anak mak la katakan)..... Uh!!! It will take time for me to adapt this situation... Lastly, the besday girl has to do her own surprise and agenda... Al fatihah tuk Mak... Miss u heap Mak!!!! Tadi lunch, abah tapaukan Kari ikan from Kayu and Zam bungkus  daging masak merah kat sriwangsa... I cooked the rice... Makan kat umah aje... Emmm, kecik ati gak bila the 2 men buat derk... Ape nak buat.... Saboo aje laa... Ngais pun bukannye diaorg peja kot... Bak kata Siti N, biarlah rahsia... Malam nie plan dinner ngan abah, zam, mak teh n reena kat Wadi Hadramawt... Makanan Arab... Hope everyone will enjoy.... ;) That's all for now... Chow chin chowww... Muahss Wasalam

Hari-hari ku

Assalamualaikum... Actually nie dah siap nak beradu... Tetiba lak ingat pasal blog... Tapi nak tulis ape ye??? Nothing much happen today n yesterday night... Life as usual... Jln masih dengkut2.. Sakit tu kejap ade kejap tak ade... Tadi jumpa Dr. Azmi for followup... Bandage Dah buka n la now pakai ankle guard... Dah jadi mcm robotcop pulak... He he he... Sabo je la.... Nie dpt another week mc... Hopefully leh balik opis next week... Bukan windu keje tapi takut keje berlambak... Arghhhh... Emm... Pe lagi nak cite??? Blank pulak... He he he.. Nitey n sweet dream dear.... Muahsssssd Wasalam

Ceritaku...

Assalamualaikum... Eeemm rasanya dah lama gila tak tulis dalam blog nie... ingat la last end of last year, masa baru2 ade blog.. hampir setiap hari, diri ini berkobar2 nak tulih macam2 cerita yang terjadi setiap hari... memula tu memang la kotakan ape yang telah dijanjikan.. but when the time goes by, cerita salam blog tu makin berkurangan.. dari selang sehari jadi seminggu sekali.. lepas tu 2 minggu.. tiga minggu.. lepas tu terus berminggu2.. sampai bulan tu.. hishh... I think sometime I have to push myself on doing something that I like.. actually writing in blog tu memang best cause it is the best way to voice your anger, frustration n happiness selain dr luah secara verbally.. betul tak?? Hopefully, with my new wonderful technology hp n easy net access, I have no other reason to delay writing in my own blog!!!! Ok.. let me continue writing in my blog... I personally think this week is not my good week... Susie (abah' maid) balik surabaya last Saturday, 4 dec 10... Lepas hantar dia kat klia kul 8am, bermula lah tugas ku sebagai bibik lisa... Uwaaaa... Saturday morning, Sunday, Monday n Tuesday afternoon everything look OK.. life goes like normal... House work still bole cope.. Then, Tuesday afternoon siap turun Serembam... Had a great n yummy lunch kat rumah ibu... Beside that ibu family, ayah pol sefamily n Chu pun ade... Kite mcm mini family gathering... Balik tu, chu ikut balik umah cause nak spent a nite at our house... Yeeee yeee....  However, on Tuesday night is my unlucky day... Kaki tersepak tunggul kat auto gate... Aduh!!! Sakitnye jgn cakap... Rasa oooo tulang kaki bergegar... Slowly tumit mula sakit... Uwaaa... Dari jln slow, jadi Jalan terhenjut2... Lepas tu terus menyesot.... Sakitnye mencucuk2 kat ankle area... Hari Rabu pagi tu gagahkan diri pi opis.. But during lunch time rasa tak tahan sangat n makin bengkak kat tumit n ankle... Terus gi HUKM minta Dr. Azmi (my cousin) to help me... Siap dia bawak gi X-ray n jumpa prof dia for advise.. Rupanye ade retak sikit n ligament lari... Then, siap kena balut David Jones kat ankle... Mulalah aku digelar SI capik.... Uwaaaaa... Sabo je laaa....  Oklah time to setop... ade hal sikit.... :0.. nanti ade masa tulih lagi.. babaiii.. XOXO... wasalam

Aku adalah pendengar setia

assalamulaikum... today terasa nak tulis blog pulak.. nape tah?? Ape pun syukur la cause di mana ade kemahuan, di situ ade jalan.. :).. Dari pagi tadi sampai la nak dekat pukul 5pm nie, my days goes on macam biasa... keje kat opis mana ade abis.. bak kata along.. kalu dah tak ade keje tu, mean it will be my last day kat tempat keje... tadi lunch ngan suzie n Faiza as the 2 other mustekers - yam n Diana mc.. so lunch biasa2 aje.. nothing much interesting.. Faiza busy cite pasal pakwe dia.. Suzie lak cite pasal her coming engagement and wedding preparation.. cian gak dia cause semua dia kena buat sendiri... sabo aje la sayang oiittt.. Em.. actually deep in my heart, I'm thinking of one of my friend problem.. nama dia Julaila n I call her ju.. dia selalu tumpang bila nak pi n balik keje sesama2.. frankly bila tengok physical dia memang seedy cause dia disable.. kaki dia ade problem.. therefore, dia pakai tongkat bila jalan.. kadang2 kat umah dia pakai wheel chair.. sejak last 2 weekends bila dia tumpang, muka dia nampak lain aje.. nak tanye takut silap.. so I just wait for her to story me... at last the time that I been waiting for dah tiba.. dia pun mula story to me slowly... dia confess yang hubby dia dah ade org lain.. hubby dia is a steward and good looking.. selama nie Nampak ok as their marriage dah nak masuk dekat 18 years old.. now, her hubby mula ungkit semua.. siap cakap susah la nak jaga dia, dia itu la dia ini la.. hish.. lelaki.. bila tak dpt semua ok semua baik.. but bila dah rasa semua, mula la condemn itu ini.. kesian sangat kat ju... tetiba masa dia cerita tu, terasa takut pulak.. tak tahu nak buat macam mana if it really happen.. what I salute ju is she is strong dalam hadapi dugaan ini.. Alhamdulillah, she has a daughter yang betul2 sayang and backing her.. tak pasal2 hubby dia sekarang tuduh dia yang dia racunkan pikiran anak dia untuk benci ayah dia.. haiyoo.. dunia2.. ape pun pun,I doakan moga ju tabah hadapi dugaan ini.. allah senantiasa sayangkan umatnya.. setiap kejadian mesti ade hikmatnya.. jus kena selalu dekatkan diri kat allah.. insyallah ju bole hadapi semua cause all of your family and friends are backing up.. ok.. got to stop now... ade hal.. :).. wasalam

Selamat Hari Bapa

Assalamualaikum... Ahad, 20 June 2010 adalah hari bapa.. my celebration ngan abah is pagi tu abah belikan roti jala ngan kuah kari.. kite org makan sesame.. then lunch zam treat abah nasik kandar kari ayam kat kayu restaurant (one of his fauvorite place)... abah nak to tapau nasik cause he worry I will be late for my late-lunch ngan mak the, reena n rizal kat sake sushi in klcc... zam pun makan nasik kandar kat kedai before follow me to klcc.. then for dinner, me n zam bawak abah gi ke sari ratu restaurant, kampung pandan... alhamdulillah he enjoy the nasik padang food.. terasa nak wish dia happy father's day tapi takut nanti I yang nangis.. he he he.. buakan ape, sejak2 nie asyik tertouch aje.. macam tadi tengok kat tv aje terus rasa nak nangis bila dengar org buat ucapan for father's day.. ape pun, yang penting I am happy I still a father so much.. syukur sangat because sometimes I can share my story and frustration to him... he is a good listener although sometimes he like to provoke me... what he like to do is sometimes he like condemn and mare depan servant.. ape lagi suka la si minah tu.. mentang2 la abah backing dia.. saba aje la... ape pun, abah I love u so much.. insyallah baby akan jaga abh macam mana abah jaga baby dr kecik lagi ngan penuh kasih saying... As for my hubby, yes, I love him too.. love him very much... tq so much saying for all your love and caringness.. syukur sangat allah temukan kite bersama.. semoga allah akan pjgkan umur kite sekeluarga, murahkan rezeki kite sekeluarga, ade zuriat yang sehat dan comel secepat mungkin dan rahmati perkahwinan kite akan kekal hingga ke akhir hayat... sayang, mintak maaf sebab sampai sekarang saya tak mampu bagi zuriat kat abg.. anak kite yang terdahulu dan sekarang mungkin tengah tunggu kite di syurga... insyallah, satu hari nanti allah akan kabulkan doa kite... kite jgn giveup kay.. semoga allah berkati hidup kite sekeluarga.. ya allah, murahkanlah rezeki kami.. berilah kami zuriat yang sempurna, sehat dan comel yang akan bole mengembirakan suami dan abah ku... tolonglah kami ya allah.. hanya pada mu kami berserah... aminnnnnnnnnn.... I'm proud to say, in my life now, I have 2 very important person that I love the most that is abah n zam... without both of them, my life is so empty... selamat hari bapa abah! Selamat hari bapa abg!

Cerita ku.....

assalamulaikum... Eeemm rasanya dah lama gila tak tulis dalam blog nie... ingat la last end of last year, masa baru2 ade blog.. hampir setiap hari, diri ini berkobar2 nak tulih macam2 cerita yang terjadi setiap hari... memula tu memang la kotakan ape yang telah dijanjikan.. but when the time goes by, cerita salam blog tu makin berkurangan.. dari selalng sehari jadi seminggu sekali.. lepas tu 2 minggu.. tiga minggu.. lepas t uterus berminggu2.. sampai bulan tu.. hishh... I think sometime I have to push myself on doing something that I like.. actually writing in blog tu memang best cause it is the best way to voice your anger, frustration n happiness selain dr luah secara verbally.. betul tak?? Ok.. let me continue writing in my blog... I personally think this week is not my good week... Monday n Tuesday are OK.. life goes like normal... however, on Wednesday, the unlucky day start.... memula tu pasal keje.. org lain pune pasal kite yang dapat mare... lepas tu bukannye kes cinonet... but case besar... shit!! Sampaikan supervisor sendiri tau nak mare2 aje.. yg paling siamang tu.. ade dia kata nape u nie tak dengar ke ape I cakap masa hudle hari tu.. u tak pay attention ke?? Lerr.. sabo aje laa... belum lagi sempat nak explain, dia dah bantai kau2.. masa tu position nak maki dah dalam stand by mode.. but piker balik buat ape nak gaduh ngan org gilo kuasa n bodo... so diam aje laa.. tapi tah la kadang2 rasa diri nie macam di anak tirikan.. tak pe laa.. yang penting I'm honest with my work... niat utama keje is nak cari duit untuk my own family n my future baby.. :).. bak kata cite putri.. kite enjoyyyyyyyyy... ape pun, I'm happy n syukur ade kengkawan opis yang baik... Alhamdulillah... Lepas cite issue kat opis tu, ingat dah ok... sekali tgh lunch tu, jiran kat taman suria jb, aunty nilam called.. kasi tau gate stainless steal kat umah dah kena curi.. siap cabut wayer2 semua.. aunty kata dia curi masa tengahari... masa tu tengah hujan lebat... hubby dia baru balik sembahyang Nampak gate tu elok lagi... so dia sampai umah tukar baju.. ade la dia dengar bising2.. ingat kite org dah sampai from kl.. sekali bila dia keluar.. haaaaa, gate dah ilang???? Trauma semua...dah la terkejut.. tapi siap tergelak.. hishh... macam2 si sang pencuri nie.. sabo ajeee... rasanye dah lama aim umah nie... hishh... tulah org kata bila dah desperate semua bole... Oklah time to setop... nak buat keje lain.. :0.. nanti ade masa tulih lagi.. babaiii.. XOXO... wasalam

My routine

assalamualaikum... wah!! dah about 2 minggu tak update blog... tah la alih2 tak ade idea n mood nak tulis dalam nie... may be because time runs so fast kot.. my routine is at 8.00am teman zam breakfast... sebelum di gi keje sembang sat kat depan sambil tunggu dia abis satu batang rokok... then, at 8.30am, duduk depan tv sat tengok rancangan 3 hari 2 malam kat tv9 sebentara nak tunggu abah turun untuk breakfast sesama... usually i will prepare the breakfast menu macam nasi lemak, cucur udang, apam, daging salai (beef bacon) or others (ikut ketetapan yg abah buat)... then, lepas breakfast, naik atas kemas katil n bilik... kadang2 tu nak gak try kemas almari.. sekali bila bukak aje, rasa malas dtg.. ah esok lah... esok esok esok, sampai la nie masih esok lah... aiyaaaa... around 10.30am to 11.00 am, abah akan buat round call ajak gi kedai beli grocery... kadang2 tu, dia tak kasi ikut.. nape tah?? takut awek nampak kot... he he he.. usually pasal menu tuk breakfast, lunch and dinner tomorrow, abah akan tentukan ape menu dia (but sometimes bila dah tak ade idea, ade gak abah mintak my idea.. masa tu semua my idea kena tolak... laa macam tu tak yah la mintak idea..).. lepas dah finalise, abah akan kasi tau suzie (abah's servant) as all instruction should come from my bos... he he he.... kadang2 tu, suzie siap tanye abah in the morning, what is the menu for next 2 day. .. biasalah pekerja berdedikasi n efficient... sabo aje la minah niee... kadang2 tensen gak... he he he... while waiting tuk suzie prepare the ingredient, i will logged in facebook... selalunye main game sat.. around 12.30noon, suzie akan buat round call pulak, ready for cooking time.. alhamdulillah sejak2 dah bole masak nie, to cook a dish, i will take around 15 to 25 minute.. selalunye i will cook the main dish.. suzie masak nasik, goreng2 ikan and masak sayur... at 1.30pm, me n abah will have lunch together... lepas makan, abah will lepak around 1 hour tengok astro before heading to the bed for his "tongsan" time... masa tu biarkan aje abah control astro.. i just watch what channel he choose... then, bila abah naik atas baru bole baring depan tv.. siap tengok satu drama ke satu drama... my prime time are 3.30pm till 4.30pm drama katsarina at tv2... 4.30pm till 5.00pm drama kutub utara kutub selatan 2 at tv 1... makan petang lak, usually abah dah suruh suzie prepare macam pisang goreng, pengat labu or others.. kadang2 tu minah tu akan pandai2 buat resipi sendiri... rasa dia no comment.. kang comment kang kecik ati pulak... selalunye minum petang ngan abah sambil tengok astro.. again, abah will control the channel... kadang2 tu, channel dia pilih boring tapi tengok aje laaa... sabo aje kan... around 6.00pm, kalu weather ok, me n abah akan pi lawat kubur arwah mak.. at least masa tu cuaca redup sikit... kul 7.00pm, abah will prepare himself to go to surau for maghrib prayer... sebentara tunggu dinner time, sempat gak main game kat fb sat... during weekdays, jarang dapat dinner sama2 ngan zam... so me n abah akan makan dulu around 9.00pm.. lepas dinner, layan tv sat sebelum masing2 plan nak tengok cite ape... abah kalu dia nak tengok astro, dia akan naik bilik dia... so, i can control tv kat bawah... yaahooo... around 12 midnite, selalunya dah masuk bilik... kadang2 sambung tengok tv cause nak tunggu zam balik.. tak pun terus zzzzzzzzzz.... wasalam

Khas buat mu...

Sayang Aku bersyukur kepada Allah swt Kerana telah menemukan kita berdua Lantas kita disatukan dengan satu ikatan yang sah Allhamdulillah, tahun ini sudah 4 tahun Kite meniti bahtera suami isteri bersama Sayang Kaulah segalanya untuk ku Tiada harta yang bernilai selain dirimu Hidup dan matiku hanya untuk mu Kasih dan sayangku tiada berbelah bagi Itulah janjiku padamu Sayang Maafkan diriku tidak begitu sempurna Walaupun apa badai menimpa diri ini Kasih, sayang, cinta dan kejujuran ku Tidak akan padam pada dirimu Anggaplah ini dugaan bagi kita sekeluarga Untuk menguji kasih dan cinta bersama Sayang Ku tahu hatimu ikhlas dan jujur Dalam menyayangi dan mencintaiku Setiap masa aku tidak putus berdoa Ya allah, berilah kami kekuatan dan ketabahan Untuk menempuhi liku-liku kehidupan bersama Sayang Aku bersyukur diatas kejujuran Dalam menyayangi dan mencintaiku Tidak pernah sesekali aku meragui mu Kerana aku percaya padamu Segalanya pasti datang ikhlas dari hatimu Sayang, i love you forever...

I can do it! I must do it!!!

assalamualaikum.... semalam petang me n hubby pegi jumpa prof to followup about my fertility matter again.. this time, we mintak prof to comment on the 2 beta hcg tests yang dah buat hari tu cause dua2 result sama <1.2 mlU/ml.. for pregnant level usually 2 - 15mlU/ml... sedey bila prof said "emm.. nampaknye tak ade persenyawaan masa but iui hari tu. it's either telur tak pecah sepenuhnya or may be although telur tapi kosong"... huh!! sedey sangat bila dengar prof cakap macam tu... rasa nak menangis aje but try to tahan.. hubby nampak air mataku berlinang aje... suddenly, there's a pause in the doctor's room... may be prof pun paham i'm feeling down at that moment... prof explained further on the problem... now i start to realise how serious is PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) .... one thing i learned about PCOS's patient is kalu kite period, tak semestinya means subur... although telur byk mana keluar, it doesn't ensure that telur tu ade quality... hish, macam2 rupanye jenis2 penyakit nie... so, the next step for my problem, prof advise me to reduce my weight... he want me to reduce 4kg within 2 months... memang la payah.. but when i think hard about my health and having a family, i think i have to think seriously.. kalu tak, sampai bila nak solve this problem... beside that, prof ade kasi reductil and increase my metaformin level to help me to reduce my weight... what i need to do now is to eat healthy and nutritious food.. bye2 to fast food and fatting food... i have to force myself to eat more veges and fruit... what i need the most is support from hubby, dad n friends... i know i can do it... insyallah... kalu berjaya, i will reward myself... ape dia?? rahsiaa... :)... pls doa for my success... wasalam

Adakah aku yang bersalah?

assalamualaikum... today, i felt so sad n stress... not of because thinking too much about pregnancy, but soo stress with my father's servant (yelah, maklumlah abah yang bayar gaji dia.. me n zam sekadar menumpang)... makin hari makin melampau betul dia nie... it all started since last friday... malam sebelum tu dah cakap kat dia hubby nak makan pau kacang for the next morning breakfast... sekali bgn2 pagi nampak dia buat nasik goreng and pau... laaa.. cakap la awal2 kalu nak buat menu sendiri... bole dia jawab " yelah, nasik semalam banyak. jadi saya buat la nasik goreng"... hishh minah nie... mentang2 la aku nie cuma anak boss, kau nak pinggirkan aku ya... kite marahkan dia pagi tu aje.. tapi dia punye merajuk 2 hari... chech!! yang paling tension is bila kite pulak kena sound ngan abah n hubby... abah siap kata kite yang terlampau marekan dia la... dah tu cara marah tu buat org lagi mare.. lerr... then, zam pulak kata my body language show that i'm so mad with her... eee... bukannya kite maki hamun dia.. cuma sekadar tegur tapi tegas... siap lepas pagi tu, kite tegur dia baik2 pun dia tak mo jawab.. lepas 2 3 kali panggil baru jawab... hati nie dah mula nak maki tapi sabooooo... hari ahad baru ok... then, today pulak dia buat hal lagi... semalam org suruh dia bakar roti baguette... dia pi potong 1/2... org tanye nape... dia kata "semalam saya dengar suruh potong dua"... eee bila pulak aku suruh!!! memandai ajeee... then, sebelum kuar pi kedai, siap 2 kali pesan kat dia.. "nanti udang saya potong ya".... 2 kali repeat tau!!! sekali balik2 dr kedai, aduh!! udang tu dah kodong kaki n kepala berlubang... arggghhhhhh.... sabo aje laa... hilang la kemanisan udang bapak ku beli... so ape lagi, aku pun cuba recall kat dia.. "kan saya kata biar saya potong"... may be tu kot, again she don't want to talk to me... tak bole terima cause masa tu kena tegur depan abah... sampaikan minum petang tadi, langsung tak tanye nak minum ape... emmm... adakah aku yng bersalah??? tah la.. lately nie servant abah nie asyik nak buat hal... ingat duduk rumah bole relak... makin tensen pulak ade... arghhhhh... nie dah sabo sesabonyaa.. tapi bak kata org sabo ade hadnya... yg paling mare bila org cakap ngan dia langsung dia buat derk.. baik cakap ngan dinding macam nie... eeeeee... rasa nak mula maki pun dah nie... tah laa.. nanti cakap kat abah n zam, last2 kite kena sound balik... baik pi sembahyang dulu laa.... wasalam...

Anak Oh Anak...

assalamulaikum.... tadi masa tengah teman abah minum petang, cuba selak paper utusan.. saja aje... just to check what's the hot news today... tetiba, ternampak satu interesting headline kat muka depan surat khabar kecik kat utusan - mega... "Kasih anak buangan".... sayu sangat bila baca artikel dia... tak sangka tetiba aje rasa teremotional... air mataq pun terkuar sikit... after reading the article, my opinion is baby nie sangat lah beruntung... walaupun mak n ayah dia tinggalkan dia kat umah org, keluarga angkat dia betul2 sayang kat dia... dia bak penyeri keluarga tu... lagilah bila ibu angkat dia dah 3 kali gugur.. sekali bila dia dtg ke family tu, alhamdulillah rezeki berlimpah ruah... ibu angkat mengandung 3 bulan.... rezeki keluarga bertambah... ya allah, sesungguhnya kaulah maha berkuasa lagi mengetahui... sungguh besar keagunganmu... satu lagi rasa touch sangat is naluri seorang yang bernama ibu.... betapa seorang ibu sayang and kasih bila tengok pada baby tu... sanggup dia and hubby dia susah payah nak dapat hak penjagaan baby tu... bila tengok muka baby, alahaiiii cutenya... semoga dia akan jadi seorang anak yang soleha satu hari nanti... :)... i'm speechless... semoga allah akan juga beri rezeki pada keluarga kami... selain dari usaha tradisional dan moden, kami akan senantiasa berdoa pada Nya... ya allah, kabullah permintaan kami... berilah kami zuriat yang sempura, soleh dan sehat... aminnn... wasalam...

amik lagi laa...

assalamualaikum.... pagi tadi macam biasa... sebelum zam pi kerja, he will drop me off to the hospital again.. today is the result day again... sampai kul 8.45am... i expect the doctor (since prof. hashim is not around today, so another relief malay women doctor has took over the task) will come around 9.00am to 9.30am... sekali dia dtg kul 10.15am... aduhhh!! lamanyaaa kena tunggu dia... sampai tertido kat sofa... nasib baik tak sampai tahap berdengkur.. kalu dak, gempak satu clinic dengar kite buat okestra... hehhee... then, nasib la baik kat clinic pun tak ramai org sangat... may be today is the sample day cause ramai hubby2 kena bagi sampel dia org... bilik berkat sure jam la pagi nie... he he he... again, i got the same answer... my result did npot show that i'm pregnant.. doctor pelik cause my telur banyak and zam punye sample pun good... nape tak ade persenyawaan ye?? siap tanye lagi kat doctor... "although perut saya dah betul2 tegang masa tu, still telur tak pecah ke?".. doctor tu pun tak tahu nak jawab... last2 dia kata "since there is no sign of bleeding since now, why don't we do another hcg test next week?"... emmm good answer to avoid complicated question... so next week, i need to met again the "vampire"... tu nurse tu kata hari senin jumpa vampire... haro selasa jumpa drakulla... she refer's to prof la tu.. ehehhehee... :) haiyoooo... muahhsss... wasalam

Injection & Shopping Day

assalamulaikum... as promised, i went to do my beta hcg test again today at 8.45am... in the morning, dad gave me a special cream to apply before the injection... he mentioned that this cream may help me to feel painless when taking injections... just apply to the position where the nurse aim to inject... so, i did told the nurse before she started to inject me.. however, she really surprised me when she say "puan, cream nie hanya effect lepas kite apply 1 hour sebelum amik inject"... huh!! what i remember the nurse at lv 7 hukm specialist applied the cream to my dad a minute before they inject him for blood test... emmm.. whatever laa.. i think i cann't run away with the pain.. however, this time is much much better... i think that this lady nur

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se is more experience that the last male nurse... sakit sikit2 aje... after the test, i heading back to home around 9.15am... may dad pity with me as i 'm so worry with the test result, he want me to accompany him to Great Eastern shopping mall... abah nak carik ape? jom la kite jalan2 kat cold storage beli benda2 nonsense.. hehehhe.. aikkk, macam tau2 aje anak nie gila jalan... hehhee... jgn di tolak rezeki yang datang... so, we went there around 11.30am... macam biasa, bila pegi supermarket macam2 nak beli... abah syok tengok daging lembu n ayam... siap beli ekor lembu tuk buat sup... wah!! plan ahead abah ku niee... lepas tu beli udang galah... wahh!! makan besar la kite org lepas nie... yg paling touch bila abah kata selagi aku ade duit, baik aku makan ngan anak n menantu aku... buat ape simpan duit, nanti org yang tak patut dpt duit aku yg enjoy... aku pun ape lagi la sokong diaa... last2 abah spend round rm300 just for grocery... beli tak la byk.. cuma harga daging mahal... for lunch, belanja abah nasik ayam kat chicken rice shop... we just tapau the food... for the first time ever, makan nasik ayam bole rasa kenyang gila sampai ke malam... nie pun rasa full sangat lagi... alahai, perut pun rasa tegang nie... wokey la.. got to go.. nak main games kat fb.. take care.. muahhss.. wasalam

A boring weekend....

assalamualaikum.... emm hari nie hari ahad, 7 march 2010... selalunya time weekend nie, we satu family rest kat umah masa pagi and then, petang or malam mesti kuar sama2... but today is different.. my weekend is very dull n boring... staying at home the whole day... nanti main net selalu kena perli pulak!! no one has ever understand my feeling... internet la tempat nak curah perasaan... semalam, hubby janji gilos nak bawak breakfast kat macdonald... teringin lak nak makan pancake.... sekali pagi nie, breakfast kat restaurant kayu lagi... this is because pagi sebelum gi breakfast, hubby gi amik best friend dia yang nama pun sama... panggilan manja kawan dia zam omar... lepas aje gi breakfast, hubby hantar kite balik umah.. hubby n kawan dia kuar gi amik photo... tah mana tah dia org gi.. tadi around 12.30pm, dia balas sms ade kat tasik perdana... then, tadi call dia and dia kata ade kat putrajaya.. ape la janji nak tea sama2 kat umah.. org siap dah beli kek... punah semuaaaaaaaa.... sapa tak tension!!! for lunch tadi memang actually tadi tak ade idea nak masak ape... tetiba pulak rasa ingin mencoba masak nasik beryani gam daging ngan acar timun n karot... memula tu cuakn takut gak cause rempah beryani nie beli kat mekah hari tu... siap cap maggi tau... dah la cara buat ade nampak simple... rasa tu tak tahu la ok ke dak... but since abah pun bagi sokongan suruh try, so ape lagi la.. just try an error bak kata org alhamdullillah jadi!! yaahoooo... syukurrr.. cuma abah comment masin sikit... mungkin cause guna beras mati tu yang nasik elok macam nasi yg jual kata kedai... lepas nie leh la berniaga... he he he... since, ade lebih sikit, kite hantar kat mat di kedai sri wangsa.. minta tukang masa kedai lak comment.. he he he... next mission masak kari dal sayur.. alala macam makan kat umah org kawen tu.. insyallah, i will try it sooon... doakan ya... acar timun n karot ala cayang... nasi beryani gam daging olala.... malam nie hubby dah janji ngan abah nak dinner sesama kat restaurant kayu nasi kandar lagik... again, sehari 2 kali gi kedai sama.. fush, sure mamak restaurant nie salute abah n hubby aku... mana taknya.. contributor yang terbaik..... abah memang dah syok abis ngan kari ikan dia.. aiyoooo... tapi tadi bila call hubby mintak dia confirm about tonight dinner, dia pulak kata tak sure makan sama ke tak nanti... laaa?? tukar pulak ke??? emmm.. tah la tak tahu macam mana nak cakap... nanti cakap kata kite mare... tah laaa... dah rasa nak mare, ngais n geram pun ade nie.. aduh!! esok my beta hcg test lagi.... eeeeee.... sabo sabo sabooo.... that's all.. no idea laaa... sowee.. wasalam

kawan oh kawan

assalamualaikum... actually, la nie tak tahu nak buat ape... nak main game kat fb, semua tengah pending to harvest / collect.. nak tulis kat blog, tak ade idea pulak.. hishh... may be cause tak ade activity lately nie... asyik "peram" kat umah aje, tu kot nothing much to story... ne masa tengah taip nie sambil2 tu tengok drama lawak "angguk-angguk geleng-geleng" kat tv2... tak ade la lawak best mana.. kalu nak santai sambil relak minda bole la layan... tetiba aje masa tulis nie, teringat kat hubby kat opis.. hishh, macam mana la dia la nie?? sure stress n sabo ngan karenah opismates dia.. as i have story earlier, memang opis my hubby nie penuh ngan politic.. sapa yg pandai ampun n gosok boss, hidup aman bahagia... yang salah pun dikatakan betul... tapi bagi org yang bangkang (bangkang kerna benar...) n tak ampun bos, siaplah kena keje kaw-kaw.. contoh yang paling dekat macam my hubby la... weekend pun opismate call cause nak urgent job.. kalu tak layan, siap pegi ngadu kat bos tu... ade tu, kalu my hubby tak mo gi lunch ngan dia org, siap pegi ngadu kat bos... ape laa opismate dia nie... langsung tak berpikiran professional... hish!! be adult man... sabo aje laa... ape pun... i always remind my self... in life especially in office, kalu kite nak carik kawan tuk happy n senang2, memang senang nak carik... sapa2 bola jadi kawan kite... tak payah carik pun dia akan dtg sendiri... tapi kalu kawan tuk susah n sedey, bole dikira ngan jari tangan n kaki... lagi bila ade prob, situlah kite bole tahu teman kite nie kawan or musuh kite... lagilah bila kite mati2 tolong dia buat keje, sekali yang dpt mana orang lain... situation macam nie, kite pun mare.. so, in the nutshell, berhati2 lah masa kite berkawan... ape pun, i'm happy and proud to have such a wonderful friends all around... :)... alhamdulillah... take care... wasalam...

Ouch!!! Not another test....

assalamualaikum... this morning, i went to the MAC clinic in HUKM alone... zam need to go to work... so, as he is on the way to his office, he drop me off at the clinic entrance at 8.30am.. sayu plus takut bila masuk clinic... sayu cause tengok org hubby ikut... i'm the "lone ranger".... then, rasa takut tu cause nak amik result test semalam... kecut gak rasa hati... 9.45am prof came.... 9.47am, my name was called... prof told me that my result is <1.2ml.. it shows that there is no fertility happened... what?? he was shocked too.. he paused... he advised me to do another beta HCG test again next week.. alahaii, nie yg lomah nie... kene cucuk lagi tak tahan nie... aduhhhh... baru tahu for pregnant levels, i need to achieve 2-5mlU/ml... wah!! lepas nie kena "work hard" to achieve that target... when i heard this news, i felt sad... terdetik dalam hati nie... nape la susah sangat nak mengandung nie... cuba pujuk hati nie "mungkin belum rezeki lagi kot"... hopefully, that it will show +ve result next week... insyallah.. kadang2 tu, terpikir juga nape la susah nak conceive... semua dah buat... cuma mungkin ade dosa2 yang allah belum ampunkan.. mungkin allah masih menguji hambanya... hanya allah saja yang tahu jawapannya... as for me now, what i have to do is to be strong... i have to believe to myself that i can do it... insyallah kalu ade rezeki, adalah tu... hanya allah yg tahu macam mana perasaan buat masa nie... it's hard for me to show in words... insyallah, i will never give up... selain dari usaha sendiri, i need to banyakkan doa dan zikir pada allah swt... mungkin dengan nie, kite akan selalu ingat padaNya... wasalam...

A short day in HUKM

assalamualaikum... my day today start with my trip to HUKM... arrived there around 10am.. hubby drop me at the front enterance near MAC... wah!! parking dah penuh masa tu.. need to wait for hubby around 30 minutes... tapi thanks god tak kena park kat area stadium.. kalu dak, cian zam kena menapak jauh dlm cuaca panas... after gotten the letter to proceed on Beta HCG test, i went to O & G clinic.. fuyooo ramainya ibu2 mengandung... ade perut kecik.. ade perut besar n may be dah sarat kot... frankly, i love to see pregnant mom.. why?? to me, they look sweet and beautiful... the more bigger their stomach, the more gloomy their faces.. i also imagine if i am in their shoes... sure look sexy... hehhe.. dah la masa tu sure kena jalan slow with perut maju ke depan.. then, pakai pulak baju pregnant lawa2... masa tu, hubby kite pun mesti extra caring on us... i wish one day i can feel this moment again.. insyallah the time will come again... allah maha mengetahui... :)... ingat lagi masa pregnant in year 2008... although i only managed to pregnant till 5 months, i 'm happy and thankful to allah swt cause giving me chance to have that precious n wonderful moment as a monther to be... every second and minute i put my priority to the baby in my stomach... ape pun, allah lebih menyayangi dia... insyallah... bila ade rezeki nanti, bolelah rasa sekali lagi the moment of pregnancy... eeee... i really cann't wait... ya allah, berilah aku zuriat yang sempurna, sehat dan comel.... aminnn... ok, back to my story at the O & G clinic... when my name was called to the test payment (cost only RM5... murahnyaaa), some patients were a bit shock... mana taknya, kerani tu panggil "Puan Saiful" and terus senyum sinis.... lerr, saya tulen la bang!!! lepas tu, terus gi makmal to do the test.. aduh, sakitnya bila tukang amik darah tu tak jumpa vain kat lengan kite... siap dia gerudi laa.. ngan muka tak malunya... "aduhh!! sakitnyaaa"... terus dia kata kite try kat area bawah tgn pulak la... alhamdulillah berjaya pun dapat my darah... tapi sakitnya jgn cakap macam kena gigit 20 semut api... may be cause the nurse tak pro in taking blood... hishh.. sabo aje la... anyway, i'm happy with the service in O & G clinic... to me, the service there is much better than the service at level 7 private wings... although O & G clinic is under government service that need to serve many patient with different attitude, they still can managed the crowd well without showing any bad emotions... tak macam kat private wings where most of the nurses kepala angin... after the blood test, i went up to level 7 to make my doc appointment.. ingat better go personally rather than call... kite nie tanye la kat satu malay nurse nie elok2... rupanye dah la dia malas... just imagine nak carik doctor appointment book pun terkial2... tu belum lagi suruh dia check bila available... this is not only one nurse ya.. mostly the malay nurse yg duduk kat kaunter pendaftaran semuanya suka berborak, menggatal and main handphone aje... etika keje langsung tak ade.. hish!! buat malu aje... nasib baik la ade satu indian nurse nie.. very professional and helpful.... betul dr. mahathir kata "melayu mudah lupa... " i need to be in the hospital again tomorrow for my followup result... if it is +ve, i need to take another injection every weekly to make my ovum strong... hope everything will be fine tomorrow... pray for me ya... ya allah, murahkanlah rezeki kami.. berilah kami zuriat ya allah... aminnn... wasalam and take care

So stress!!!!!

assalamualaikum... today is 29 Feb 2010 @ sunday.. i'm writing this using my hubby's computer in his office... yes, it's weekend but he has to go to work!!! what a pity... it's all not because he did not finish his work... but this is because of there is a stupid and uncivilise person in his office.. just imagine, at 5.30pm today, one of his office mates called him as she need him to ready one designed by tomorrow, monday @ 1 march 2010 early morning... hello... don't you have a brainn!!!!!!! job is given less than 24 hours??? damn it!! for the 1st time ever, i see that my hubby is totally anger.. his face turned to red trying to calm himself.. what i can say is "sabo aje la sayang.. tak sangka ade lagi spesis org bodoh mcm nie tinggal kat bumi nie"... i felt sorry for my hubby... he has to forgone his weekend rest... nape la org nie tak ade otak ya... what i'm sad is we have a family... only weekend is the time that we could spend time together... nie nasib baik tak ade anak lagi.. kalu dak,, kesian baby kite tak bole spend time with abah... mungkin dia tanye "mana abah?? nape abah asyik bz ngan keje?? abah tak cayang adik ke??" alahaiii... mungkin salah satu sebab allah tak kurniakan lagi kami nie anak sebab kesian tengok keadaan kite org yg tak menentu kejenya... usually, only at around 12 midnight,  my hubby will be back home from work... ade tu sampai 2 3 pagi.. ade tu sampai tertido tunggu dia.. ape pun, insyallah i trust him... :) what i cann't believe is the people that he is working with... they never has any consideration... whenever he try to take leave, there will always be a disturb.... ade org nak jumpa la.. bos tak lulus cause katanya selalu amik cuti (padahal tidak pun!!! taip2 tahu cuti bole dicarry forward)... ade urgent job which was given less than 24 hours.. hello!! org nie pun manusia... bukannya robot or hamba abdi!!... tolonglah! dia kan ade family.. pls spare some of our human feeling on him!!! nape la org yg tak buat keje, dia org sanjung.. zam yg buat keje sampai bersengkang buat keje, semua org tindas dia... lain org buat keje, lain org dpt nama... mentang2 la dia tak lawan and tak mahu gaduh... it's important is because my hubby nie bukan type kuat mengampu... so, maybe that's why ape2 dia yg kena.. ya allah, lindungilah keluarga kami... ya allah, janganlah mereka mengapa-apakan kami... berilah kami kekuatan untuk hadapi segala ujian dan rintangan ini.. berilah suami ku ketabahan... to my sayang, bersabo aje la.. insyallah, satu hari nanti semua akan terjawab... mana yang baik mana yang buruk... kite tawakal aje lah dan buat yang terbaik selagi termampu.. selebihnya kite berserah kepada allah swt untuk menentukannya.. rezeki tu ade dimana2... i will always love you forever.. i will always support you in anything you done... my sayang MESTI bole buat punyeee!!!! :)...   wasalam...

Visit from Peja n Suzi... 26 Feb 2010

assalamulaikum... semalam terima kunjungan hormat dr cik peja n cik suzi.. asalnya plan nak sampai kul 3pm.. tunggu punye tunggu member ku nie sesat... hehehe... lerrr... ciannya... memula kul 3.45pm tu ade call suzi.. tanye kat dia " kau ok ke? tahu jln umah aku tak?" confidentally dia jawab.. "ingat.... dah nak sampai nie lagi 10 minute.. ".. then, dah lebih 10 minute, ade kul 30 minit later, peja call.. "kami kat jalan kenanga.. umah lisa mana yek?? ".. lerrr pilot sesatttt... ciannyee kawan2 ku nie.. nasib baik, dia tahu landmark umah kat tudor court n flat pkns.. so, selamat lah dia org tiba kul 4.30pm... the 2 cute ladies.. peja & suzi... menu hidangan petang is mee goreng (beli kat kedai mat sri wangsa), otak2 goreng n keropok ikan.. awal2 dah sound kat kat the 2 dara's yang kite tak masak cause masak simple tu family aje (menu family - kari sardin, telur dadar n pedal goreng)... alhamdulillah, they enjoyed the food... selain, agenda makan, we chat a lot of things.. sebelum makan tu, suzi tunjukkan gambar yg dia n peja jadi model tuk baju collection from our officemate, john paris.. wowow lawa sangat.. baju ala2 camelia laa.... memang class gitu!!! suzi bilang cost satu dress above RM2,000.00.. huhh!! bak kata kawan zam.. sempat gak telan air liur sat.. hehehehe... mahal tapi memang exclusive.. rasanye vip2 ok kot.. macam kite nie, kalu nak pakai pun tunggu event yg betul2 grand... kalu nak pakai tuk majlis org kawen pun, kena make sure wedding tu kat hotel 5 star above.. dewan2 or rumah tak main laa... wahlaa... nielah pic en paris, the "future" famous designer... masa makan tu, one of the things we share is about our office life.. biasa la kan, makan keje yg tak ade keje... one of my friends always say to me, if there is no more job to be done in the office, it means that it is you last day at work... :)... he he he... betul gak... selain, hal keje, hal officemate satu lagi pulak... ade 1001 ragam... cuba macam mana kite terima n handle people attitude is important... in other words, jgn carik gaduh sudah... we must try to be gentle first.. however, if the situation worse, just try to settle step by step... i think u know what i mean kan??? :)... ok, let put aside cite pasal keje... selain tu, kite cite pasal sihir2 and org terkena buatan... memang tak dinafikan benda2 nie wujud.. cuma kite sebagai umat islam kena senantiasa berdoa pada allah swt supaya kite dilindungi dr syaitan dan anasir2 jahat dan juga syikir... emm, tak mo la comment much on this.. frankly, i'm not good in talking about this... what i can share is a few years ago, something mystic

had happenned to my family.... my late mom has to suffer all the pain till her last breath... who did it?? hanya allah yang mengetahui... ape pun, i believed that allah lebih menyanyangi dia.. biarlah org buat kite, satu hari nanti akan dapat pembalasan org itu dari allah swt... insyallah...

however, the most interesting topic that we discussed is about peja's friend... just name him with mr. H... he he he... this part is where my hubby pulak jadi kauseling pada peja.. what we observed, mr. h likes peja but peja suka2 malu pulak.. hish... budak nie jual mahal pulak... hopefully, with the help from my hubby on his advise, their relation getting sweet each day... peja, just for for it... try to accept him.. i know it takes time for the love to come but don't giveup ya... i agreed when in a relationship, it is good if a person love u rather than we love that person... ape pun, me n suzi doakan moga peja n mr. H bahagia sampailah ke jijang pelamin.. aminnnnn... :)... peja n suzi off from my home around 7.30pm... thanks girls... i really happy to have you around... hope that we could meet again.. perhaps for dinner or lunch this time... :)... muahhss.. friends forever ya!! love u.... wasalam...

Busy.. Busy.... Ciannya dia...

assalamulaikum... yesterday was a busy day for my hubby... starting from 6.45am, he send his 2 nieces, tasya n jiha to subang... then, he rush back home as he need to accompany abah to the work shop due to my car window got cracked... then, he rest for 10 minutes before rushing to office... in the evening, he back home at 7pm... without resting, he quickly followed abah again to workshop as my car is ready... once arrived home, he quickly prepare for badminton game in cheras... he back home at 11pm and took his dinner - nasi putih ngan sup tulang... he surfed the net for 15 minutes before off to bed... baru baring 10 minutes, terus dengkur... alahaii, ciannya dia... tak pe la sayang.. sabo aje kay.. kan this week is a long weekend... jumaat cuti umum... so bole repay your sleeping time... :)... i love you forever.... muahhss... wasalam

A short night babysitting Tasya & Jiha

assalamualaikum... yesterday, 22 feb 2010 morning, my day started like normal... lepas subuh sambung tido... then, around 7.30am, wake up my lovely hubby... macam biasa, i will prepare breakfast for him.. the menu is air teh o manis ngan pau kacang merah.. i start my "housewife" life for 3 months again as i'm doing my iui procedureon 21 feb 2010... this round, i will make sure i will take extra cautions... minta2 lah ade +ve sign this time... insyallah.. aminnn... however, in the afternoon, i got a shocking news.. zam's sister in law was admitted emergency in the University Hospital (UH)... she suffered severe pain around the stomach... what i remember, she got stone in the gall... not to sure in which stage she is at now... she did try using traditional medication last year in kedah... may be everyone think that it has been cured... anyway, i always pray for her good health... so pity of her as currently she is pregnant for 2 months... nielah org kata dugaan kot... last night, after worked, zam went to visit her... i felt sorry as i cann't go as i need to be quarantine till next monday for blood check up... a bit surprise when zam told me that he will bring back his two nieces, tasya, 7 years old and jiha, 3 years old to our house as no one could babysit them that nite... soo pity... i m soooo happy.. to me, because they not only cute with their on way but also sweet... tak pe la.. since la nie tak ade anak sendiri, pinjam anak sedara kejap pun pun ok la tu... around 11pm, they arrived home with zam... my first impression, since it already late night, surely both of them already felt sleepy... i did ask my servant, suzie to get ready their bed before they arrive... as soon as they entered the house, i could heard they voices although to them, they are whispering to zam.. pak njang nape nie?? pak njang nape tu?? hishh... byknya soalan... zam pun dah lack of idea nak jawap semua pertanyaan.. he he he.. while waiting for zam to have his late dinner, the youngest, jiha came to me and ask me... "mak anjang, ade pencel clour tak??" lerrr budak nie ade hati nak main lagi ke... hishh!!!... i did persuade them to go to bed.. tapi biasa la kurang berpengalaman.. so dia org tak makan lah saman... he he he... i try other way by giving tasya and jiha milo.. hoping, it can make them feel sleepy... but they more energetic... alamak!!! haiyooo... they even getting talkative... before go to bed, they are the one who teach me on how to prepare milk bottle for them.. hehehhe... malunyaaaaaa.. he he he... at almost 12.30pm, me n zam having dilemma either the kids to sleep with us or with suzie... at last, we decided to move the matters to our room... the room become so "crammed".... zam slept with jiha at the behind room.. i slept with the eldest, tasya on the bed... suka la tasya... cause air-cond kena dia... adik dpt kipas aje and sikit aje udara air-cond... tido ngan tasya nie bole tahan dak... i got karate from her all night... tu tak masuk dengkur dia lagi... sebijik macam pak njang dia... terer gak si tasya nie.. he he he... on the next morning, it is easy to wake tasya up especially at 5.45am.. just calling her name twice, she wake up and take shower by herself... however, the sister, jiha, emm.. ade susah sikit laa... zam is having a bit trouble... jiha can't open her eye cause she is sooo sleepy... one funny thing when my hubby told her... "adik kata tak mo nangis kan semalam?? nape nagis nie??".. he he he.. kesian kat dia pun ade... but what to do, she need to go to the kindergarten... she look so cute at that time... i really wish that if i could have a child now... i will love and care my own child with fruitful happiness...

at 6.45am, i followed zam sending them to subang as their dad is waiting to sent them to school... terasa macam hantar anak ke sekolah lak... how sweett... :)....

wasalam n take care...

IUI again - 21 Feb 2010

assalamualaikum... again, on 21 Feb 2010, i'm going through the Intra-Uterine Insemination (IUI) procedure at 9.30am at MAC, HUKM... alhamdulillah everything goes well.. my stomach feeling blotted and full... may be the eggs is hatch... eowwww... so pain full... i really pray hard on this... hopefully this round is successful... sometime i did pity my hubby too.. not only because of the costing, but also the stress that he had to go through... lagi2 bila masuk "bilik berkat" to get his sample... hehehe.. sorry to say the environment in that room is not so pleasent.. my hubby say.. "tak bole nak concentrate laa... dengar org batuk laa... dengar org jalan la... hishh"... he he he... cian diaaa... ape pun, yesterday, he managed to get the sample from home.. so taklah pressure sangat... once sample ready, we need to rush to the hospital as the sample only last for 30 minute... syukurlah, semuanya ok... insyallah on this 1 march 2010, i need to take blood for beta hcg... if confirm that i'm pregnant, doc will give me injection and admit me... tolong doakan ya.. semoga semua berjaya.. ya allah, selamatkanlah keluargaku.. berilah aku zuriat yang sempurana, sehat dan comel... ya allah, kabulkanlah permintaan.. aminn.. wasalam.. :)

mini reunion - 20 Feb 2010

assalamualaikum...

that night, we had a memorable and enjoyable night... thanks to mas and faisal for being a such a good organizer... not to forget.. thank you so much for the great dinner... next time it will on us pulak ya... :).. i believe everyone - ida, bah, mas, faisal and me are so happy especially when we try to recall our old time story... masa zaman menjadi muda2 dulu ewahh..... emm, tak sangka dah more than 10 year we did not met (except mas n faisal as we having the same fertility doc)... wowow, that's longgg... at first, we did plan to meet up for dinner on the 21 Feb. however, last minute, i need to cancel as i am going for my iui procedure on that day... may be mas is pity with me... so she did make an effort to replan the gathering on 2o feb... alhamdulillah bah n ida were ok with the new plan... we all meet up at al-rawsha restaurant at jalan damai at 8.30pm... mas came with her loving hubby, faisal.. bah came with her 2 pretty daughters... bah's hubby only came later as he has a game to watch... then, ida came with her small hero.. i came with my caring hubby... only memeq and her fiance could not make it as they have something to attend to... we ordered "lamb mandy" family size (something like beriyani.. only the rice is more prosperous.. sedap tau).. the food was good... sampaikan nak abiskan nasik pun terkial2... we all did have a great night!! we chat.. we laugh...only a bit sad when we suddenly think of suraini and zainah... kat mana la dia org nie sekarang?? we all really lost contact with them.. next aim is to find them... but where n how... haiyoooo.... jejak kasih pulak ke?? he he he... guys... sorry ya pic yg kite amik segroup tak menjadi cause pak arab lupa tekan CLICK.. ape la... :).. bikin rosak ana punye programme laa... anyway, take care all.. hope we could met again soon.. miss u girls so much!! before i end, to:-

• mas & faisal - stay "sweet couple" forever... hopefully with the "work hard" in this fertility complication, it may show us the +ve sign soon... insyallah.. aminnn...

• bah - senantiasa maintain lawa and kurus dari dulu walaupun with 2 daughters.. MESTILAH..... bagi tips nak kurus leh??... :)

• ida - still remain the same - cute n sweet mama... :) ... bak kata org tue2, tak makan zaman.. nie bole la berguru tip kecantikkan nie... he he he...

wasalam

hari ku

assalamulaikum... hari nie hari sabtu.. rasanya masa berjalan terlalu lah cepat... rasanya belum buat ap2 dah nak dekat abis satu hari... nasib baik tadi, me n zam sempat teman abah gi kedai beli dvd player before... wah!! siap abah beli 2 sets lagi.. satu nak bubuh kat hall umah... satu lagi nak taruk kat umah di jb... fush!! eager tul abah nie...  sempat lagi usha abah beli flat screen.. TBD... to be discuss later... he he he... lunch tadi masakkan tuk abah n zam meehon singapore ngan telur dadar potong halus... macam biasa, lepas lunch ikuat zam pi opis sat cause dia nak abiskan project dia lagi sikit... alahai.. jadi penunggu opis dia la petang nie.. hehehe... tapi yg tensen sikit, comp yg kite guna nie, alahaiii "gronggeng" sikit... lembab bila buka certain2 website.. cittt... sabo aje la nie... alahaii.. nape la idea dah makin kurang nie... hishh... may be cause tengah tulis nie, zam bukak lagu from computer dia.. memula tak perasan lagu ape.. kite pun main nyanyi la.. sekali.... rupanye lagu raye... lerrr abg oittt minggu depan raye cino la sayang bukan raye melayu.. hishh.. hubby ku dah konpius nie... hehhehee malam nie nak makan satay... okey la.. that's all... nak gi "pomen" website yg tak leh buka nie.. hishh... geramnyaaaaa... take care.. adios

a day after back to work

assalamualaikum... feeling abit different when i'm back to work... today, as usual, i'm clearing my email as i cann't access the system yet... cuma kadang2 tu tolong diana buat keje.. kesian pulak dia.. jadi mini assistant tuk dia.. but call and reminder to rm.. he he he... tadi lunch ngan sheena kat secret receipe.. i ate spaghetti balognies and sheena took back paper chicken with rice.. lot's to catchup with her... tup tap tup tap she is now pregnant 6 months.. alahaii my cute cousin nie... dah rezeki dia.. sure dia n hubby happy n counting days for the big moments... as a sister and cousin, i always pray for her happiness.. happy for her too... tu yg makan tadi sampai lupa nak call zam for lunch time!! he he he he.. alamak!! tak ade idea laa... nie maybe cause line lag.. otak pun tepu la... he he he muahhss... wasalam.

i'm back to work

assalamualaikum... my life is back as usual effective 25 Jan 10... :) yesterday, i'm back to work again!!.. tot to want write something in the blog after back to home.. tapi macam biasa la... hangat2 si taik itik... dah kalah ngan keletihan yg teramat sangat... sebelum kul 12 midnite dah zzzzzzzzzz.... yesterday morning, I went to work with diana... doing car pool with her till 19 feb before I go for the next round of iui.. alhamdulillah she is friendly, caring, "sekepala" n staying near by my home area... now every day, I can follow her to work and back home on her cute black myvi... best gak naik myvi.. rasa comel aje macam penumpang dia.. he he he...yesterday morning, soon as i arrived to the office, i felt like celebrity... mana taknya, semua yang nampak mesti tegur... siap kata miss u la lisa.. ade tu siap peluk2 lagi.. huhh, touching pun ade... may be this is what we call friendship... friend for happy and friend for sad... only yang tak syok is with my bos... langsung tak cakap ape...muka "bonyok" mak aii... tah laa... malas nak cite panjang ngan dia.. lantak hang la... ade aku kisah!!!! then, lunch time kat subway with suzie and diana kat avenue k... bestnyaa makanan roti permesan cheese bread ngan roasted beef... sedap gilosss... sebelum balik opis, stop by kat kedai buah... beli la 3 buah delima plus 250gm buah cheery from new zealand.. sekali bila tukang jual tu kata semua total rm56.. terkejut... nasib baik duit cukup2.. kalu dak ade yg kena tolak balik buah tu.. tak ke malu.. he he he... moral value of the story make sure sebelum nak beli barang at least dlm purse kena ade rm100.. kalu nak save, bawak credit card.. tak cukup bole zasssssssss... he he he... one funny thing yesterday evening is before nak balik tu, nampak la si suzie tengah "perang" broadcast ngan anita... siap use keyword.. "jumpa kat kedai bunga".. "dah jom"... "sat".. hishh.. terasa iman nie tergugat gak.. sekali ngan muka tak malunya terus call suzie.. wey, korang nak gi mana nie?? nak ikuttttt... nasib baik member kata OK... kalu dia KO.. maunya meronta2 depan pc... so, kami berlima - me, diana, suzie, anita and paris heading to white house coffee kat ampang park... rupanya peja n maryam n her hubby dah ade kat sana.. memula tu tak mo makan just nak minum ais chocolate.. sekali bila tengah member order roti bakar and nasik lemak.. terliurnyaa.. terus order spring roll.. suzie pun tambah side order hotdog... nyam nyam...then balik umah, dinner pulak ngan abah... my menu semalam daging masak kicap.. nape tak perut tak bapa baik sangat.. kejap2 sakit.. nothing much to story.. cuma lepak2 and sembang ngan hubby.. tlepas tu terus kbommm.. kalu bom meletup pun tak dengar kot... what a day... :) wasalam

the weekend...

assalamualaikum... today, it's sunday... as usual, lepas bangun pagi, i will go to kubur with abah... then, bought breakfast at hidayah.. today's menu roti canai dua keping with sardin and dalca... sedappp.. bak kata org makan tak ingat dunie... then, make a wake up call to zam at 10.30am... biasa la hubby nie.. bila time cuti bgn lambat... cian pulak nak nagged dia awal2.. dah la balik lewat semalam... kasi can laa... after, he had breakfast, we went to wangsa walk... emm.. it's a beautiful shopping center... decoration dia lawa... teringat masa kat tassie... shopping center ikut style mat salleh... tak tinggi but a long shopping complex... ade byk kedai makan like fast food and asian cuisine, bowling center, fitness center and macam3 lagi... tgif pun ade la... syoknyaaa... before balik, lepak sat kat georgetown white coffee... wah!! macam jadi org kaya pulak.. he he he... oklah ais kopi dia pun sedap... terasa byk susu then kopi... will come again there to try other menus... lunch tadi, tapau food from sari ratu... abg bought ayam goreng bumbu, sotong gulai, kailan goreng, sambal cili hijau, and terung masak cili... me as usual never missed my eis avocado... sedapp... we eat at home as abah tak mo makan kat sana.. katanya rice sana mahal... imagine... per plate rm1.50... zam pun agreed... alahaiii suami dan abah ku nie... i'm writing this blog using the computer in my hubby's office... just to accompany zam to finish his work in the office... kesian pulak dia weekend pun kena turun office.. this is all because his uncivilise and unhuman boss.. ade ke bagi job on saturday at 11.30am which due date by monday morning... halooo.. saturday kan org keje sampai kul 1pm aje... sunday kan off day... tak ade otak betul... IQ zeroooooooo.... what he mean is may be he wants zam has to stay back during weekend to finish the book project with 50 pages... haiyooo... ape laa... sabo aje nie...  nie yg terasa nak sumpah dia jadi sesumpah!!!!!... eeee geramnyaaaaa... malam nie pulak dinner plan kat restaurant kayu lagi.. rasanya abah dah "high" abis kat kedai nie.. he he he he... semalam dinner we tapau nasik minyak and ayam masak merah from there too... tonite, dia plan nak makan roti naan ngan ayam tandoori.. aiyooo... macam2 abah nie... kang cakap gemuk kang kecik ati pulak... lepas tu tak kasi dia makan cian pulak... hishhh.. susah gak nak jadi anak solehah niekan... ewahhhh.... oklah.. nak setop writing nie... nak main games kat fb sat before heading back to home... abag, jom la balik dah kul 7.10pm nie... takut la duduk kat opis lama2... jom laaaa.... wasalammm..

after 9th day......

assalamualaikum... hello... i'm back again... argh!!!!! again, my laziness managed to control me.. bak org tue2 kata hangat2 si taik ayam... he he he he... i really don't know why i have been quite lazy and not active after doc told me about my miscarrige... sometimes i do feel body aching, back ache and uneasy.... may be this is one of the reason i have no mood to write... emm.. i think i have to do something to give me some motivated to write in this blog....  we should do it if we feel happy with it right?? yes, lisa can do it!!!!! last saturday, hubby was not well.. gotten a slight flu... i tot nie mesti tak bole pi jalan nie.... alahaiii... buringnyaa duduk rumah... sekali that evening, after having tea together, he asked "nak pi bagan lalang tak??" ... huhh biar benor org tue nie... he he he... mestilah kite jawab YES, nak piiiiiiiiii... so, that evening after maghrib, we went to bagan lalang with zam's brother, atan and family... atan's sister in law with family also came along.. meeting them at sepang before heading to bagan lalang... about 12 of us including 2 small kids (below 2 years old) having a nice and wonderful dinner... we had sotong masak tepung, udang masak tepung, kailan goreng, cencaru bakar sumbat, ikan siakap masak stim, ketam masak masam manis and kupang masak cili.. together with the dishes, we had nasik puteh and 4 jags (2 each) of air sirap and fresh oren... total was around RM300tt... okey la tu.. kirenya macam eat till you kebontang laa... we arrived there around 9.30pm and heading back to kl around 11.45pm.. sampai rumah at 1am terus bommm... tido sampai tak ingat dunia... still remember what one of my close friend, chin like to say... sleep like a pig!!.. he he he... then, the next sunday, we had a family gathering... again, we did have a good makan.... mana la tak gemuk???  my 2 darling aunties from gombak and seremban came to our home with her son and family... also there, my 2 cousins, rezal and hanisah... i fried sotong masak tepung and ayam goreng... suzie cooked nasi puteh and sayur kacang pjg goreng... then abah and zam bought kari ikan from kayu's restaurant... air rub bir cordial... mak teh brought sayur campur cap cai... then, the dessert were pau kacang merah and popia... nyam nyam.... only in the evening, my aunty's daughter (the one from seremban) came with her hubby and my lovely cousin, reena came to our home... although tired, we did have a great time together.. hope we could have this makan2 again... actually nothing much to story about last monday till yesterday... as usual, zam is busy with his worked.. somtimes we managed to eat dinner together.. but mostly, he only took his dinner around 11pm... takat nak teman makan tu bole la... tapi nak makan sama2 tak mampu den... lapoooo sangat.. one more thing... syukur sangat yg bengkak kat leher suzie dah mula surut... did went for followup check up on sat's morning at the same clinic... doc confirmed that she don't have TB or any other serious sickness... alahmdulillah... she is soo happy... keluar2 clinic aje terus ajak beli bawang... hishh, makcik nie... tadi nampak lembik aje kat clinic... sekali bila doc kata ok.. keluar clinic senyum aje... seronot la tu... pegi kedai pun macam2 nak beli... biarkan asal dia bahagia sudah laa.... he he he he.... no idea laa... chowww.. wasalam

the 4th times....

assalamualaikum.... yesterday my day was ok in the morning... i cooked asam pedas ikan merah and labu masak lemak for him... nothing much to do... after cooking, i rest till lunch time... no mood to play games in fb... i'm so worried about on my checkup.... my doc appointment was at 5pm... i called the cab at 4.15pm and the taxi driver drived slowly to hukm... alhamdulillah, my hubby managed to go to the doc together with me as he drove from work in bangi... when i told doc about my spotting and bleeding, he is un happy... he told me that his aimed is no more miscarrige from me in coming... he checked me via scan and confirmed that i had my recurrent abortion again... this is because there is a thin white line on my ovum... ya allah, this is my 4th times having miscarrige... hanya allah yg tahu macam mana perasaan ini pada masa tu... hubby this asked him why this always occured... he told us that may be the inside of my body is too hot.. that's why the fetus cann't stay long... the most is 5 months... my doc claimed that he is still searching ways on how to handle me... ya allah, aku redha dengan ape yang terjadi padaku... ampunlah dosa-dosaku ya allah... ya allah, berilah sehat tubuh badan ku agar aku dapat mengandung tanpa menghadapi kepayahan... aminn..... doc's next plan is for me to do my iui again by next month... yesterday, he prescribed me some more medicines... metaformin, fomera and diane... he told my hubby and i to be patient.... insyallah kalu ade rezeki tu adalah... ya allah, berilah aku kekuatan ya allah... berilah aku ketabahan untuk menghadapi semua ini... when i think back... i know that during my last iui procedure, i have to go through lots of obstacles.... abah demam denggi... atuk sakit kat hospital... suzie bengkak di tekak... ya allah, semua yang aku sayang dan risau sangat bila dia org sakit... ape pun, i will never blame to anyone... to me, nie semua allah yang tentukan... bak kata zam.. ape yang berlaku hanya allah yang tahu.. kite sebagai hambanya kena terima dengan ikhlas... insyallah kalu kite buat semua dengan ikhlas, satu hari allah akan balas... insyallah.. aminn... that's all for now... will write more soon....

yesterday and today.....

assalamulaikum... nothing much i could share about yesterday on what i have done... as usual, morning i played all games in fb.. around 11.30am, i cooked for family.. yesterday menu - daging masak kicap... other dishes like ikan goreng and taugeh goreng is cooked by my servant... then, i countined playing the games till lunch time (make sure taking shower before eating)... after having rest an hour and praying, i countined playing games again till tea time... rest again to watch tv3 akasia drama - cinta balqis before i continue playing till dinner... while my servant busy preparing the dinner, she told me that she is worried of herself... a few days before she realised there is a swelling near her throat... huhh... when i asked her, r u in pain? she says "NO"... but she keep "pestering" me to give a definite answer on what happen to her... she keep on asking why and how could this happen... hey, how do i know!!! alamakk, i'm not a doctor laaa.... i cann't stand till i say.." suzie, pls la jgn kasi saya stress... kamu duduk depan kejap ya.. nanti bila bapak pulang kite pegi clinic".. i felt sorry for her as she he so panic... i cann't deny that i'm also panic... :]... alhamdulillah, abah back from surau 10 minutes later... i explained to abah and asked him to drive us to clinic mutiara in bukit indah.... all the way from home to clinic, again my servant keep on repeating, talking and asking what has actually happen to her... she is sooo worry if she cann't work anymore... alahaiii, dia nie... terlalu obsess sampai buat semua panic and stress... doc has confirmed that suzie's gland is swelling... there's 2 possibilities, it's either due to bacteria or tuberculosis (batuk kering).... for now, doc prescribe antibiotic. mineral and pain killer to treat the swelling... however, if the swelling getting worse after a week, we then need to refer her to the hospital..... dugaan dugaan... today, the swelling on her neck has a bit improved.. on that she feel her neck a bit sprain... aiyooo.... tapi macam nie still degil tu.. ade ke makan obat tanpa makan?? hishhh... sabo aje leeeeeeeeee arghhh... stress la macam nie... mana nak pikir kesihatan abah and keje zam... then, now have to think about suzie's condition... haiyoooo... what can i do is berzikir byk2... dada nie dah tahan sabo... kalu tak tahan dah pecah dah... arghhhh... today at 5pm, i'm having my doc's appoint at hukm... i may get my result on my iui procedures that i did on 4 dec 09.... hope the answer is +ve.... insyallah... ya allah.. tolonglah hamba mu nie... alamak... suddenly otak blank bila pikir pasal petang nie.. opss.. sowee... just wait for my next sharing ya.... take care... wasalam

my day to day

assalamualaikum.... em... just realize that i have not been writing quite sometimes... the last was on last monday... lately i bit busy with personal and family life... although i'm housewife for 3 months, (as planned) i still have a lot of agenda to do... cooking, playing games in fb, calling aunties and accompany dad going here and there... last 2 week, my family and i went back to jb to spend time with grandpa and my 2 aunties... then last week, we when back to jb again.. this round is because there tahlil and doa selamat for the whole family... although, feeling a bit tired, but still i enjoyed myself... not only happy gathering with uncles, aunties and cousins... but also soooo touched when cousins and aunties "pampered" me with good and delicious food... mana la tak gemuk?? he he he... for the last 10 days, i'm a bit worried with myself... got spotting and bleeding.. it is not much... only when i urine, i can see a thin string of blood.. sometime red.. sometime chocolate colour... emmm... i did rush to O & G emergency when it's still spotting after a week... i feel a bit relief when the MO doc told me that just patient and have plenty of rest... the spotting / bleeding has 2 possiblity.. either pregnancy is slowly develop or miscarriage... i'm praying hard for tomorrow ( 14/1 appointment with prof. hashim)... hope for the good news... ya allah, tolong lah hambamu nie... ampunlah segala dosa ku... kurniakanlah aku zuriat ya allah... aminnnn... yesterday evening, as i'm looking at one of my cousin's profile in fb, i suddenly noted that she has a blog... huh!! terror nie... i never know... once i read it, i'm so amazed.... she not only sharing some interesting stories but she is soooo cute funny... reena, keep writing.. keep this good job!! kak lisa soo proud of you!!! your are my inspiration... :) my aim now is to write in my blog everyday starting today.. may be this is the best way to "pour out" what i feel... do wait for more stories soon... :) wasalam

Harapan di tahun baru...

assalamualaikum... cepat betul masa berjalan... tup tap tup tap dah masuk tahun 2010.. rasanye ade yang diplan tuk buat 2009 pun belum 100% achieve.. nampak gayanya kena carry forward la ya... actually banyak nak buat dalam tahun 2010... ape pun, i need to take step by step.... kang nanti org kata yang di kejar tak dapat, yang dikendong keciciran.. ewahhh... :P this year, i harap dan doa banyak2 moga allah murahkanlah rezeki kami sekeluarga... biarlah this year bole ade zuriat after trying to do iui on 4 dec 2009... frankly for the last 3.5 weeks, everthing look ok... alhamdulillah no bleeding... cuma start on 2 jan tilll 4 jan ade bleeding and spotting sikit2... hopefully nie beleeding cause janin tu nak melekat kat rahim... minta2 la for the best.... i really hoping so much to get baby soon.. at least selain buat zam happy, bole la ade teman buat abah kat umah nanti.. kalu dak, sunyi sepi aje umah... ya allah, aku memohon padamu ya allah... semoga kau berilah aku zuriat yang sempurna, soleh dan sehat.. tolonglah hambamu ini ya allah... aminnn... selain tu, semoga allah panjangkan umur dan sehatkan tubuh badan kami sekeluarga... me n zam nak buat abah happy selalu... cukuplah selama nie abah sedey dan kecewa ngan perangai seorang yang bernama anak lelaki... selama nie abahdan mak sayang sangat dia.... tapi akhirnya dia saman abah sebab nak harta arwah mak... tak pernah lawat kubur mak... tabur fintah kat me and abah... selain tu, kurang ajar dan derhaka pada abah.. sampai sekarang masih lagi nak berdendam ngan abah sebab nak rebut harta... tah la ape nak jadi dengan orang nie... biarlah allah tunjukkan dia jalan yang benar... semoga satu hari nanti dia akan sedar, tiada siapa yang berkuasa di dunia nie melainkan allah swt.... semoga juga pekerjaan ku dan suami kumendapat berkat dari allah swt... dah masuk 2 bulan unpaid nie rasa syok pulak duduk umah... selain bole rest well, bole concentrate jaga umah n abah... seronot jadi housewife... tapi bila pikir balik, cian pulak zam aje yang keje.. kadang2 tu nak mintak duit dia pun tak sampai hati... dah la kat opis dia byk politic... bukan dia yang bermasalah tapi org2 opis kat dia bermasalah... it's better i don't eleborate much.. kang abis terkuar cite2 yang tak patut kuar... bak kata zam.. i reserved my comment.... think that's all for now... nak gi masak ketam masak lemak n bubur pulut itam... :) wasalam